One Step Closer

So close to the end, everything seems so surreal now. I've literally got 7 work days left here in the Happiest and most Magical Place on Earth. Exciting, yet sad. One part of me is saying, 'bring on the last shift and end this madness', but the other part i saying, 'please press the pause button (if there was one)'. My mind is reeling and I've actually got to start - wait for it - packing!! *dun dun dunnnn!* that word alone is cringeworthy enough.

Am I ready to say goodbye to this place and goodbye to Fantasyland? I am really gutted. The thought of saying goodbye to my fellow Fantasyland cast members is slowly killing me. Tears are welling up in my eyes as we speak and I'm getting slightly emotional, typing even faster now. I may never see these people again. Reading that really depresses me. I almost cannot accept it. I will not accept it. Sooner or later, I will come back, and I know it. I will come back to the US and though I may not see them back in Walt Disney World, I will plan on visiting them, eventually. I have fallen in love with all these beautiful people, and I don't know how to let them go. I am already anticipating that saying 'bye' will be THE most difficult part of the entire program.

Oh Orlando, why did you have to steal my heart away? Haha. I've been working soo much over the past few weeks that I am quite frankly, burned out. I haven't called in to work for more than 2 months and I think it's fair to say that I was due for one today =)

Christmas week was a bit harder than I thought. My Christmas Eve shift dragged and I felt drained the whole time. Finishing at 2:30am did not do me any good, and skyping with my family soon after I got home, resulted in waterworks. I did not mean to ball in front of them on Christmas day, but I was tired, I was lonely and I was hungry - plus, I had to go to Church at 7:30am, which meant that I only had like 2 hours' sleep max. It was a pretty terrible Christmas for me, but I had to keep in mind that others were probably going through the same thing, if not, even worse. Only one thought kept me pushing through on Christmas Day: 12 days. It was only 12 days til the end of the program, 12 days til my family come down, 12 days to what I would call, 'freedom'. I cannot wait! I got this. Of course now, there's only 7 workdays left and 10 days til my family arrive. Oh what bliss that would be...

Positive thoughts. That's all for now.

Til next time.

xx aBz

Procrastination Strikes Back...

Damn, it's been almost a month since my last post. Gotta admit, I've been lazy and putting it off yet again. So here's what's been happening since I got back from my mini break in NJ and NYC:

-Thanksgiving
-I've been working almost 40 hours every week
-Not going out much or at all
-Been applying for jobs back home (gotta be prepared)
-Ate good Japanese food at Teppan Edo in EPCOT with the girls
-Being homesick
-Waiting on payday every Thursday to go shopping
-Enjoying 50% off Disney merchandise
-Picked our Secret Santa (and trying hard not to disclose them to anyone)
-Working even more
-Being more homesick
-Jay Sean, Bruno Mars, BoB and Enrique xl'ent XMAS 2010 concert at HoB
-Disney Graduation this Thursday (16 Dec)
-Tegan's birthday; and
-Not looking forward to working during Christmas...

It's been pretty eventful, so much is going on that I am, to be honest, quite overwhelmed. It's so close to the end that I am both anxious and excited. I keep telling myself to hang in there and not get myself worked up too much. I should really cherish these last moments here. I know that once I leave here, I'm going to be so upset. *deep breaths Abbie* I can do this. I'm at that point that I can almost see the end and taste it, but then again, I don't want to. Gaah! I'm missing my family. I have no idea what will happen after the program; I'd rather take it one day at a time.

Til next time.

xx aBz